~Pink is Cool~

8:42pm: I'm in the Comcen right now... My computer at home is busted kaya tagal ko na walang entry... Anyway, the past week has been... uhm, tiring... and kinda bad. Something happened last Monday... it just ruined the rest of my week... Sa Oviedo... kinausap ako... ano ba! It was too personal na. Wala nang kinalaman yun sa pagiging president ko ng club. As far as I'm concerned, I'm doing my job, wala akong ginagawang masama. Kung alam ko lang na hindi dapat maging super close ang president sa isang member... na hindi from the same batch... sana I didn't accept nalang the position. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG BA WITH BEING CLOSE TO SOMEONE FROM ANOTHER BATCH??? She's my sister! Ano ba! Yung mga ibang tao diyan sa baba ng corridor namin, just shut up! Wala lang ata kayong "ate" kaya kayo nag-iingay! Please, don't wait na for the time na sobrang mapikon na ako... you guys don't know me so don't you dare try... and konting respeto naman... I'm still older than you... besides, kayo nagsimula mag-ingay, di kami... so please... just shush!

We're not doing anything wrong! Thanks Ajja and Meggie... you are the only people I know who understand... we appreciate it.

Mali time ng computer dito.. wala lang

4:41pm: THIS IS LIL DOO!!!!
hahaha!! this is lil doo.. i asked her if i can add and entry and she said yes.. wahahaha!! okay.. she told me to share the thing that happened a while ago.. its weird but.......... yeah.. okay so ill start na.. [im so weird talaga] okay, i told my maid to buy me food.. so i got a paper and wrote a big mcdo.. then i wrote na my orders.. then when she came back, the plastic was jollibee!!! she's so stupid!! ya im mean but hello?!?! the first thing i wrote on the paper was a big as in BIG mcdo!!! grr.. so i had to eat this stupid "yum with cheese" instead of a cheeseburger meal.. it super sucked!! large coke instead of a strawberry float, peach mango pie instead of an apple pie.. but peach mango's better.. and that mocca crunch thing instead of a caramel sundae.. haay... malamang i dint finish all cos ang sama ng mga lasa.. i wasted money lang.. i gave the burger and fries to her and she didnt eat it rin.. haha! then when she realized that she bought from jollibee, she said... "nadaan ko na nga yung mcdo!!" grabe!! i didnt tell her to pass by mcdo, i told her to BUY from mcdo.. tsk.. anyway....... i think im taking up so much spaces.. this isnt mine naman so ill end this na..

8:53pm: Save Me
We're having computer right now... free time... I'm tired... I'm sleepy... I'm annoyed... I just wanna go home... I just wanna rest... rest... rest... rest... So tired...

6:26pm: ...
I want to die na

7:13pm: Bad Day
I watched Shark Tale with my family today... it's so cute! That's the only good thing that happened...

This afternoon, I went to my lola's house and I fell asleep, when I woke up, my dad started getting mad cause I'm always puyat daw... I always use the phone ng sobrang tagal... and he gave me a curfew... 8:00! My gosh... annoying. Pareho kami ni lil doo napagalitan this weekend because of the phone that's why we didn't get to talk today... sad... haay... What's wrong with using the phone ba? .....

3:45pm: Zzzzz...
I'm so sleepy... It's raining pa naman, sarap matulog... Eco test tomorrow... Arghh... I'm so sick of school...

10:01pm: Monday again???
I just watched Bourne Supremacy with parents... ang astig ng movie! Jason Bourne is the coolest!

I was able to do part of my Physics IW, yey! And, I really don't want to do CL... I don't want to read the encyclical! Arghhh! Oh well... and I didn't do the computer homework... great! I don't want to go to school anymore!

7:40pm: Work now!
Gosh... I still have not started my CL and Physics IW! Ahhhh! I'm so tired na...

I just talked to Lil Doo on the phone the entire day... as in from 1-7! Coolness! Thanks sister! You've made me happy... yes naman! You took the problem off my mind, thanks!Good luck on your game! Awabshu!Ü

Can't wait for tomorrow!Ü

By the way, it's a happy day!Ü

7:37pm: Shut up na... please
Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! I just found out something this afternoon. While hearing the "thing" I thought I could handle it just fine. As in I was sort of laughing and joking pa and everything. Although I was really bothered, I didn’t want to show the people and most especially myself that I am affected. I mean, I've been doing a great job the past weeks. I have been happy again… and I even thought na bato na ako, na hindi na ako matatamaan sa whatever pang pwede ko marining or malaman. I was wrong. After hearing the "thing", I started looking for Mara. I just had to tell her. I actually have been hearing things na last week palang but I didn’t mind it nalang cause parang hello? Just let it be! Get over it! So there… I told Mara. Malamang, negative reaction diba? "Bayaan mo na…" She was telling me. I know. Para wala nang gulo diba? Kaya nga pinabayaan ko na yung iba. But what I found out kanina is not easy to ignore… it's just not. That is why as I was talking to Mara about it, I just suddenly broke down and cried. Shit, I cried! I remember just two days ago, I was telling Lobs that I haven't cried this school year… wala lang. I couldn't help it. I had to let it out. I just had to cry. Have you been in a situation wherein you want to defend yourself but you just can't because you don't want things to bet bigger and more complicated than it already is? Or wherein you want to get mad at someone or some people because you actually have the right to but you just can't because you don’t want to ruin friendships? It sucks! It's just so unfair. Wala akong laban. I kept telling Mara how sucky it is that I can't even defend myself. But she's right. I need to let it pass nalang. Oh well… ayoko ng gulo kaya nga shut up ako eh. Kaya kung pwede, shut up na rin kayo… di niyo lang kasi alam… foul na. Study, watch a movie or even do community service or better yet, pray nalang… there are so much better things to do rather than… so please, snap out of it.

To my friends…
1) Mara
2) Ajja
3) Cris
4) Marcy
5) Leeanne
6) Ivorie
7) Melchie
8) Zoe
9) Livy
10) Mica
11) Lee-Ann
12) Klar
13) Julie
14) Anna Mae
15) Jo

Thanks so much for the comfort. Thanks for all the hugs. Thanks for all the pieces of advice. I really appreciate it.Ü It honestly made me feel so much better. You're right Anna Mae, you guys know me. They don’t. And that's what's important.

7:31pm: Stunned?!
I had a bad morning. I mean, who would have a good one if you were already up at 4:30! I had to wake up early because our call time was at 5:30. We had to be in school early to prepare for our SabPag presentation. We were invited to perform at this convention and we were the opening number so we just had to be early. So there, we were painting ourselves again so early in the morning. (I keep saying early! Oh well…) Oh, we changed our face paint to red… wala lang. We were supposed to be at the Holiday Inn at 6:30 but we got there at around 7:15. We practiced for a while then we were locked (well, not literally) inside this function room. We were so pressured kanina! Well, I felt the pressure. There were a lot of people there… teachers from different school to be specific. And of course, we had to do well because we're representing our school. Most of us were not into it since it wasn't a competition or anything but we just had to force ourselves to do well. Before our performance, we were making parinig that the school should at least feed us after or allow us to eat somewhere… something like that… and I think narinig nga kami cause we were served food after the performance- ham and cheese croissant and cake… good enough. Anyway, while performing, I noticed that the people were all so NR! As in NO REACTION talaga! I don’t even remember hearing them applaud after. But then later on, we were told that they were stunned. According to our teachers "namangha" daw yung people that's why they were quiet. Wooshoo… I doubt it. But if in case it was true, well… good for us. We're really galing! And, we kinda got invited again to perform at JASMS… not yet final though. Gosh! We're performing pa sa Family Day! We're spending so much na on paint! The school should give us something! I mean, it's not our choice to perform… we're just wanted. Ang yabang! Wehe! Congrats again 4D!Ü

Thank you 4D blessings
Thank you 4D class
Thank you 4D experience of Sabayang Pagbigkas

Thank God it's Friday. It might not have been a very good Friday… but I'm still happy. Looking forward to tomorrow's gimik. I'm watching a movie with my mom… Bourne Supremacy… woohoo!

By the way, thanks cousin for the pillow! I just love it.Ü